Time, Waiting, and Hope

I saw a movie today. It was about hope, and time, and waiting. Waiting....
It seems like lately waiting is becoming my mantra. I'm waiting to move out, which is now only two weeks away, waiting for that special someone once again. I really loved that movie, it was "The Lake House". It reminded me that even if things seem to be off right now they will fall into place at some point. Relationship wise, anyway. And however things do end up will be how they should be. It's hard to have that hope sometimes, but slowly my hope is being restored in that area.
They say that time can heal a broken heart, but I'm not sure that's true. I think all time can really do is make you forget....forget how badly it might have hurt. And by the time you remember it again it doesn't matter to you anymore. At least that's generally how I've observed things to be. In my own life, I can look at a couple of high school relationships I had that ended with the other person wanting out, and I vaguely recall how upset and hurt I was when that happened. But I don't feel that hurt anymore from those relationships. All I feel of it now is the good times, and what I've learned from all those experiences.
I think all time really does is give you the necessary distance in order to begin again.

Time just seems to be moving slowly for me right now.

Which One of Them by Garth Brooks

The girl at the bar, she bought me a beer
And she'd like to know if I'm new around here
And the gal that I danced with says she's all alone
her friends have all left and she needs a ride home

Oh and there have been others who gave me the eye
But if they only knew they were wasting their time
'Cause there's only one lover I can give my heart to
But you didn't want it and you broke it in two

(So tell me) which one of them will you be tonight
Oh which one will hold me in your arms so tight
I've forgotten what's wrong, given up on what's right
(Tell me) which one of them will you be tonight

So I'll just smile and pretend and she'll never know
Who she's up against when she's holdin' me close
You're all that I want, girl, you're all that I need
And when I close my eyes, honey you're all I see

(So tell me) which one of them will you be tonight
Oh which one will hold me in your arms so tight
I've forgotten what's wrong, given up on what's right
(Tell me) which one of them will you be tonight

Learning to Live Again by Garth Brooks

I burned my hand, I cut my face
Heaven knows how long it's been
Since I've felt so out of place
I'm wonderin' if I'll fit in

Debbie and Charley said they'd be here by nine
And Deb said she might bring a friend
Just my luck, they're right on time
So here I go again

I'm gonna smile my best smile
And I'm gonna laugh like it's going out of style
Look into her eyes and pray that she don't see
That learning to live again is killing me

Little cafe, table for four
But there's just conversation for three
I like the way she let me get the door
I wonder what she thinks of me

Debbie just whispered, "You're doin' fine"
And I wish that I felt the same
She's asked me to dance, now her hand's in mine
Oh, my god, I've forgotten her name

But I'm gonna smile my best smile
And I'm gonna laugh like it's going out of style
Look into her eyes and pray that she don't see
That learning to live again is killing me

Now here we are beneath her porch light
And I say what a great time it's been
A kiss on the cheek, a whisper goodnight
And I say, "can I see you again"

And she just smiles her best smile
And she laughs like it's going out of style
Looks into my eyes and says, "We'll see"

Oh this learning to live again is killing me

God this learning to live again is killing me

Call and Answer by Barenaked Ladies

I think it's getting to the point
where I can be myself again
I think it's getting to the point
where we have almost made amends
I think it's the getting to the point
that is the hardest part

and if you call, I will answer
and if you fall, I'll pick you up
and if you court this disaster
I'll point you home

You think I only think about you
when we're both in the same room
You think I'm only here to witness
the remains of love exhumed
You think we're here to play
a game of who loves more than whom

and if you call, I will answer
and if you fall, I'll pick you up
and if you court this disaster
I'll point you home

You think it's only fair to do what's best for
you and you alone
You think it's only fair to do the same to me
when you're not home
I think it's time to make this something that is
more than only fair

so if you call, I will answer
and if you fall, I'll pick you up
and if you court this disaster
I'll point you home

But I'm warning you, don't ever do
those crazy, messed-up things that you do
if you ever do,
I promise you I'll be the first to crucify you
Now it's time to prove that you've come back
here to rebuild

rebuild
rebuild
rebuild
rebuild...